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Persevering Through the Hard

“I’m just so tired of it being hard!”

My friend expressed this cry of her heart because she knew I understood hard, and that I understood the hard that lingers. It’s been almost a year since I started to aggressively address my mental health, and that has been a whole lot of prolonged hard.

“I think if I knew what I was going to get out of this, I would be able to accept it better!”

Isn’t that the truth! I know I sure do think that way. Like I could totally accept the hard that is childbirth when I knew that I got a baby in the end. Or when I played sports in high school, I would do lots of hard things to train my body to be able to succeed in the tasks set before me.

Running the race set before us

let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. – Hebrews 12:1-2

Since I had that conversation with my friend, God has brought Hebrews 12:1-13 consistently into my meditation. Enduring hardship as discipline has really helped sustain me in the past 11 months. Believing that this pain was purposive – that through this God was birthing something in me – has been helpful.

As I’ve been reflecting, I’ve realized that I still have a tendency to look for what I’m going to get out of this pain. That this discipline that strengthens my feeble arms and weak knees is going to produce something for me. Like if I can only get trained enough, I will be SUPER CHRISTIAN who will emerge from this with a more profound way to minister to others going through pain.

That’s not the model that Hebrews 12 gives, however. It does not instruct me to run with perseverance the race marked out for me fixing my eyes on how much better I’ll be when this discipline is through. It doesn’t remind me that there is so much personal glory in enduring hardship as discipline. On the contrary, I’m instructed to fix my eyes on Jesus, the One Who initiated faith in me and is making it perfect. He modeled for me what I had to do- for the joy set before Him he endured the cross, scorning its shame. Willingly He underwent physical, mental, and spiritual suffering with His goal firmly in front of Him- bringing glory to God by completing the work He gave Him to do (John 17:4). He fixed His eyes on displaying the fullness, the truest essence of the Father.

And that’s where I need to fix my eyes as well. Not on how I’ll be glorified by getting though this, but that this discipline is a means to glorify God! He is training me to throw off the tendency to seek my own glory that so easily entangles me. This will result in my increased ability to reveal Who He is to the hurting world He’s put me into.

Practical running advice

As I was pondering this and discussing with my friend, she asked me for practical insight. Like, how I do this on the days when the darkness, the intruding thoughts, seem overwhelming.

The answer is that sometimes I do it poorly. I’m still learning and working on it, therefore, sometimes I fail and fix my eyes firmly on my pain.

And other times I focus on the character of God. My verse for the year, Philippians 1:9-11, prays that my love will abound more and more in knowledge and depth of wisdom. I need to know more of Who He is in His essence so that I love Him more and more. And as that knowledge and love grows, I will become more focused on glorifying Him, revealing His character. In practical terms, that means prayer, Bible study, and meditating on the verses that God inspires me to set on my phone’s homescreen.

And that helps when the race marked before me passes through a lot of pain. It gives me perseverance when I’m just so tired of hard. What He intends to do with this discipline that is finishing my faith is His business. And giving Him glory is mine.

Meanwhile, He is my very great reward, which is way better than getting a baby or mad basketball skills out of my labor!

Copyright 2019, Jo Leggett

Jo Leggett

Jo Leggett works in women’s ministry by leading Bible Studies, speaking at conferences, mentoring, and speaking Christ into women’s lives. She has a firm grasp on her own brokenness and that of the world, stirring compassion for those hurting. Her deep walk with the Lord has provided her life experience to recognize God’s enduring goodness despite the circumstances. She lives with her husband and four kids on the Navajo reservation.

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