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Sanctify This Moment

Suffering from PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) makes living in the present moment not only challenging but very often impossible. My brain and my body spend a great deal of time “living” in the past or perhaps re-living the past is more accurate. Flashbacks and body memories in the form of chronic triggering pain pull me physically, emotionally, and spiritually back into the darkness from which God has already rescued me.

I know, intellectually, that in this moment, here and now, I am safe and free but it is exhausting, soul wearying, to have to continually remind myself that what I am feeling in my body and seeing in my mind are just memories. PTSD has literally forced me to practice (and practice and practice…) Mindfulness.

Therapy and spiritual direction are essential to my healing. Naturally, my Catholic faith has been integrated into the work that I do with my therapist. As I speak with my spiritual director about the work of reprocessing my traumatic memories, he has often named what I am doing as “sanctifying memories.” What does sanctifying a memory look like for me?

The short, simple description is: finding Jesus in the darkness. This I know to be true… Jesus has been with me, within me, at every moment of my life even in utter darkness, even when I had no awareness of His presence. Through the use of prayer, art therapy, EMDR therapy, and Catholic guided visualization I am able to relive these painful events, but not alone this time. Now I can see where Jesus was all along. He never abandoned me and in the darkest moments He provided the greatest graces. This gift of sanctifying my memories is Jesus’ way of not only healing my wounds and PTSD but He is literally showing me how He has taken what was meant to harm me and using it for good.

As I reflect on God’s power to sanctify my memories of the past, I realize that this power is here for me in the present as well. I can sanctify every moment by asking, “My Jesus, show me where You are in THIS… this mess or tragedy or joy or boredom.”

And my Lord is a gift-giving, prayer answering God and He does show me His loving presence moment to moment, day by day.

Closing Prayer:
Jesus, thank You for Your healing grace, which sanctifies me – past, present and future. Please reveal those memories or moments that it is time for me to bring to You for healing and sanctifying. Thank You for Your love in this moment. Thank You for Your grace in this moment. Thank You for Your presence with me always, in every circumstance of my life. I pray in Jesus’ name, Amen.

Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.- 2 Corinthians 5:17

Laura Ercolino

Laura is an Expressive Arts Facilitator and contributing writer for Catholic healing ministries. She has experienced the healing power of creativity in her own journey and feels called to share her creative talents and story so that other women may also experience hope and healing.

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